We all do this, search for something to fulfil us or to make us feel whole. It's like an addiction, nobody questions it as it is considered normal. Well, what are we all searching for in others, food, sex, drugs, alcohol, work, spirituality, films, music? The list is endless but we still seek. The worst part is that we still feel incomplete even when we acquire these things. Something is still missing, we thought that by acquiring material objects, more friends, more money, more status... that this would fulfil us and we would finally be complete. Yet, we find out that we still feel incomplete and so we continue our search outside of us, hoping we will finally find what we are looking for. When it dawns on us that what we have been seeking cannot be found outside of us in objects (money, people, items...) we reach a point where we may start to question our life, and so the spiritual search begins (oh no haha).
Seeking continues but this time with a shift internally, shifting our awareness from objects outside of us and now becoming aware of how we feel, think, act internally. We seek to find wholeness within and to no longer feel so split. Yet again, this becomes another search for finding something to complete us and make us whole, maybe a new meditation technique, a new book, a new healing practice, a new teacher... Again, the list goes on. It becomes extremely frustrating looking for something but it just never arrives. Despair is felt when we know what we are searching for and yet we still can't find it. It's here right now but we can't get it as it's just this. When we finally give up trying to find something and just let go of seeking, we realise that nothing was ever lost and we were never split to begin with. We were never not whole and we have been complete the entire time. The seeking eventually dies away and what remains is what we were always looking for.